Monday, April 2, 2018

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Post-tax season fun!

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Sunday, September 10, 2017

Moms that create thrive.

Two things happened today to kick start this post (and me to return to the world of blogging). First, I was whipping up a batch of muffins for Sunday breakfast, I couldn't find my old favorite recipe, and in the search for a new, one, I did some tweaking to hopefully get my desired result. Second, one of my girls was struggling with the all too common, "what do I wear to church" dilemma? I first started to give my traditional, programmed Sunday morning answer, and then my current work in the apparel industry caused me to stop, drop the old language and give her a solid answer that would empower her for more than just Sunday mornings.

Moms, we have a lot going on in our lives. Whether your career is currently focused at home; is split between the home and somewhere else; or you run a business from your home, you are busy. I know we are busy, but busy should not trump you thriving in your own life, and helping your kids learn how to thrive. 

We have a greater purpose than laundry, dishes, chauffeurs and even meal prep. Our kids need to be ready to LIVE their lives with focus and clarity. If they haven't seen us practice the habits and take the steps to make it happen in our lives, they are either going to struggle to figure it out, or miss out on an amazing life.
Over the last 3-years I have been on the path to figuring out what that looks like. I still haven't arrived, but I have picked up an amazing amount of new life skills and habits along the way to keep me stepping up to what is next in my life. For me, that even includes my kids and husbands doing their own laundry. :) 
Life isn't about perfection, but it does require progress, and progress requires dropping some old beliefs, habits and traditions, to get us where we are really called to go, allowing all of us to thrive.
So, who wants more thrive for themselves and their kids? Let's do this!

Wednesday, June 22, 2016

Showing up.

"Show up. Hold space. Do the work. Abandon perfection. Flirt with your curiosity. And for the love of the process, keep coming back..." This is a Yogi quote from Lululemon.

Showing up and holding space is not the same as showing up, checking it off of the to-do list, and moving on to the next item.

It is time many of us learn how to do the work, and do the work well. And not the noticeable work, the internal and life changing work....

For me, this concept was one of the key factors that brought me back to my yoga mat--time and time again. Being an avid "fitness-lover" most of my adult life, the benefits of yoga weren't as appealing as a run. One hour running burns a whole lot more calories then 1 hour on a yoga mat. (Now, if we were practicing Hot Yoga or Bikram Yoga, there would be a close comparison.) However, if you were to enter the activity and length of time into any calorie counting/weight loss app, Yoga doesn't rank too high. There goes that dessert you might have been hoping for.

Many of us live by a check-list. I will not deny it, I love lists. But when a list becomes more important then the why and who you are actually running around and checking items off for, there may be a problem...

When I was first discovering yoga, what kept getting to me was that I couldn't always force my way through a pose; nor could I skip the beginning of class because it moved slow. I couldn't just mentally check out either. When I run, my mind can cover quite a few topics in 30 minutes or more. To lose focus in yoga meant I would spend the next few minutes trying to figure out why I was not on the same place on my sticky mat as other the class participants. Some truths about myself became obvious. I often always did things just to get them done, I didn't always stay engaged (my mind was great at finding tangents). I was impatient with what I could not do. I hated to slow down and take my time—my mind kept reminding me there were too many things to fit into a day to allow room for slowing down!

The next truth was even worse then the previous ones. I wasn't any better off of my sticky mat. Whether it was my quiet time, my time with my kids and/or husband, at work or school—I lived with the exact same mentality—always struggling not to rush to the next "thing".

In no way have I begun to live without the same struggles, but now they are obvious to me. So when I show up, I really am working at showing up. When I start my day, it is with intention to make space—for God to speak into my life, rather then me give him my expectations. When my day gets hacked and is not at all like my list is—well, there is tomorrow. And it just might not get done... And, yes, I am "burning" less calories with my hour on my mat, but dessert is not a necessity, and learning to love God, my family and others is.

I think most of us have managed to learn to live really busy lives, and possibly look like we have conquered how to make it all work. And maybe we have—if our to-do list is what we are working for. I don't want my to-do list be my reason for living. I want a life that is full of God's grace. Working out the life that He has intended, not the one I constructed via my own lists and plans.
And I'm hoping you don't either...

" Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a worker who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth."  - 2 Timothy 2:15

Friday, June 10, 2016

trading your voice for someone elses...

It doesn't work. And more importantly, you weren't created to borrow or trade. You have your voice for a reason. Your genetic makeup is as it should be. It doesn't mean that you will always recognize your own voice. Your voice can be lost in the hustle, or in the crowd; because truthfully, you can forget what your own voice sounds like.

Maybe your heart is bent toward adoption, but no one you know has ever adopted. Possibly all the other moms you know are softball moms and football moms, and your children have no desire to be softball players or track stars. Maybe you have just had a child, and you are trying to figure out if staying home, working part time, or returning to full-time work is best -- but everyone in your circle of friends and acquaintances still chooses to works full-time. The possibilities of life choices are endless, and to add to the challenge, the possible interruptions shift with each season of life.

Hopefully, you know you have your own voice. Possibly you just don't know how to make it sing yet? How loud is too loud? How quiet is so quiet that you can not create change? Knowing our voices - our true voices - takes more then knowing ourselves. Ourselves have the tendency to fall into line with those we spend time with, how we perceive that we are perceived--even how we perceive ourselves.

This past week I had the opportunity to sub a yoga flow class. This should have been a great thing. Should have been... as I entered the classroom, my own voice was lost in insecurity and fear that I was too different from the other teachers. Yes, I know my sequencing was in line with the class, and yes-I knew what my plan was. But as each new person walked in, I was less sure. By the time I set up on my mat, my own voice was gone. And instead of offering a class that would have met everyone where they were--my own voice was inaudible and my frontal lobe no longer recognized the sound and commands. What followed was a separation between mind, body and voice. It looked like a train wreck-disjointed and beginning to separate from the rails, but unable to hang on. My greatest regret were the lovely passengers that were on board with me.

Living with your own distinct voice takes courage. Finding the right tone and volume level requires practice--and sometimes failure.  Knowing how to live with in healthy parameters, but not letting your thought process stop with what you know, or all you think you know...

As life choices come and go, because they always will' with each season of life--something new will pop up... I believe we need to be less concerned about making the "right" choice; and more discerning if our decision allows us to grow in the direction we want our life to go. I am a firm believer in the need to have some amount of "slow" in our day. Where we set our to-do list, our Bible Study, our agendas aside, and really search for the quiet, to allow God room to shape our hearts and minds--otherwise we choices and wants in life will easily get tangled with the busy of life.

"Above all else, guard your hearts; for it is the source of life." - Proverbs 4:23 This verse is there to serve as a reminder to guard our hearts against evil, but especially the busy and crazy that distract us from a life lived in wholeness with Christ.

If you don't already have time set aside each day for some slow, please begin to create some space for some. God may desire to speak to you and help you see decisions from His vantage point; but He will not force His way into your day. That choice is ours. Where do you want to end up?

Tuesday, June 7, 2016


When a yoga class is coming to a conclusion, the teacher closes class with the term, "Namaste." Because the word is Sanskrit, and many of us have only heard it mentioned in a yoga class, and typically is offered of the bowing of ones head, it throws people. What am I bowing to exactly, or why am I saying the word Namaste?

Namaste is just a form of greeting one another. In the western world, I have yet to meet someone that didn't say some form of hello and/or goodbye before they parted ways. If someone did, we would think they were being rude. Well, this would be the same with Namaste - which is used at the beginning or ending of conversation.

Namaste is a deeper greeting. I compare it to the person that says, "Hello, how are you doing? And really want to hear how you are doing. More often then not, "hello, how are you?" really means hello and I am going to assume you are great... So - it is also a form of respect. And then it goes deeper then that. Broken down in Sanskrit, it is defined as I bow to you... I'm leaving a bit of my ego at the door. My life force is equal to yours.

Hold up? That just got a bit weird... maybe, or maybe not. In Genesis 2:7, "God breathed the breath of life into man." That is when man became alive. That does not make me god, but it does mean that God is why I am even alive. And that goes the same for each of us. And if you are a Jesus follower, and have studied God's Word, you know that the whole Bible is a story of His love for us. Jesus came to earth, to die for each of us... "Whoever believes in me, just as the scripture says, will have rivers of living water." John 7:38

"For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son..." John 3:16 God loves each of us the same. He offers each of us mercy, grace and relationship. Why would I want to live any differently then that? So when someone offers a Namaste - they are offering to let their ego and agenda get out of the way for a few minutes - to respect and honor the time you have together. Because you are worth it.

Thursday, June 2, 2016

small beginnings.

"Do not despise small beginnings, for God rejoices to see 
the work begin." - Zechariah 4:10

Whenever starting something new in life, from yoga to a new job, it is easy to become frustrated with how hard or slow the process seems to move. In Jon Acuff's book, "START: Punch Fear in the Face, Escape Average and Do Work that Matters," he talks about what it takes to become someone who is exceptional at their craft—10,000 practice hours is a part of the magic equation. That is a lot of time.

In Zechariah, the Angel of the Lord is speaking to a man called Zerubbabel. Zerubbabel was one of the Israelite's who lived in Babylonian captivity for 70 years. Around 538 B.C., while Cyrus was King, Zerubbabel was the appointed Governor of Judah. He was the first to lead a group back into Israel. In Zerubbabel's second year back, he built an alter to the Lord, as well as laid a new foundation for the Temple of the Lord that had been destroyed by the Babylonians.

In Zechariah 4, the Angel of the Lord appeared to him in what seemed like a dream. Since everything recorded in the Bible is for a purpose, I wonder if Zerubbabel was feeling like progress was moving too slowly. Or maybe he felt like there was too much to do, and not enough qualified help to pull it off—himself included—for some reason, a conversation took place between the Angel of the Lord and Zerubbabel. And the conversation was important enough that it was recorded for us to read and study today.

Picking up something new is hard, especially when we have in mind exactly how we believe everything should fall into place. Not only do we struggle with the unfamiliarity of something new, but we also tend to battle our own insecurities.

When ever you step onto your yoga mat to practice, I invite you let go of your expectations of how you think your day and your yoga practice should look and feel. Begin each practice with leaving the rest of your life off your mat. This is a way to begin to teach your mind and heart the freedom of surrender. A small beginning, but a powerful one.

In Zechariah 4, just a few verses earlier, Jerubbabel hears the Lord of Hosts tell him, "Not by might, nor by power, but by the Spirit of the Lord." We aren't given the privilege of life so we can live with the constant struggle of trying to figure everything out. God knew before time what our choices would be, when we would hit walls and roadblocks. He truly does have the best plan (2 Thessolonians 5:24). However, learning how to not rely on what we think we know is difficult. So, every time you unroll your yoga mat, remind yourself of the freedom that can happen with small beginnings.

Tuesday, May 24, 2016


There is a scripture that is often used for a lot of card signing and big event celebrations to encourage church-goers. It is found in Proverbs 3:4-5 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all of your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."

These are two amazing scripture verses to live by! However, I think for a lot of years I read "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will then make your paths straight." Notice which portion I tended to leave out? "... and lean not on your own understanding."

Not until I began practicing meditating on God's Word did I begin to notice I had always said it, but never listened or heard it when I did. How much different does the day or future look when we aren't trying to figure everything out? When we are just focusing on one moment and day at a time, it can be freeing and live changing; and also seem scary. When we begin to realize we really do not have control of the world., but we do have control of our moods and our attitudes, blaming others doesn't work anymore. And we really have to learn what it means to trust. The good part is, God created the sunrise and the sunset, He knew His plans for you before you ever learned to move into a Down Dog, and He knows what is coming. He can handle our future, and it really will be alright if we let go of trying to figure everything out.